People in an elevator.

Are you celebrating T-Day? I personally find it super hypocritical, to celebrate 'the day the pilgrims sat down to feast with the indians" considering the pilgrims and company, basically genocided them all, or the majority and stole all their land...and forced the survivors onto 'reservations'... THe saddest part, is that the indians seemed more 'advanced' and more 'civilized' in most ways then the people who drove them out, albeit, less well technologically armed, and less well 'evolved' to deal with sickness and alcohol...

But, none the less, I will still eat some turkey, pumpkin pie and feel the 'warmth' and 'good cheer' of the holidays. And of course, remeber what I have to non-hypocritcally be thankful for. (And feel a little bit sad for the native north americans.)

Not the sharpest crayon in the box

running across more old friends from growing up, one girl asked me today if I was in the cia! hahahaha! how funny is that. =P
in other news this country is too corrupt to hire honest people...
like Katrina showed, everything becomes an opportunity for gov't to juggle power and finances...

oh about the same as you I suppose. I can relate to the lack of team work, at my part time job at the boat store, the 'crew' leave much to be desired in the line of team work. seems like back stabbing and ego tripps dominate that bunch, but luckilly I really have little to do with them, and am only there one day a week.

Personally, I try not to get involved in the juvenile hustling for pecking order in groups of low esteem... I think the people there suffer from personal problems and lack of self confidence as well as who knows what sort of mental problems :P SoooOoo, I just try and be a better person, ignore their petty failures in life, and just do my work and get on with other things. Its unfortunate when people can not appreciate the oppertunities to learn from others and truely develop a real sense of team work and grow and work with each other. But even worse is lowering your standards to that of people who do not really understand what team work really is about...

But thats life, especially these days, so much petty backstabig as people stramble for anything in the way of work or school. I rember the same in art school, where many immature people really can make things a pain. Har d as it might seem, best to stay out of their low tactics and just try and do your own thing. You should also go to your advisors at school and voice your disapointments with the situation. granted its unlikely they can really do anything to improve it, as your choices are usually either toughen up and grow some thicker skin, or do what you can to not get involved with them as much as possible.

Sad as it may seem, finding a 'good' situation of working with serious like minded professionals, is rare these days, and you do have to put up with untold amounts of childish behavior and ego trips...

That is one of the hard things going from the professional world or working to back to school,.. :/

Sorry to hear you are struggling, I am pulling for you and hope things improve. As for myself, I am just looking for a better job and trying to have as little to do with the people at the boat store as possible, as letting people drag you down, is not my style ;) On ward and Upward! :D

Hahaha, I don't know about me being any good at it, but I am safe! I think safety first and I will improve with practice, like anything else. I have been shooting for a very long time, but this sport is new to mee too, only been at it a little while, but I do enjoy it. Though its msostly sitting around waiting to shoot, and then it is very complicated and takes some thinking to get it right.

Best defense for your self and stress, is not to get it! Avoid dangerous situations and people and avoid things that stress you out! Guns are a defense of last resort, for life and death, when there is no escape or other way to be safe.

I think though, if you say you support world peace and fighting for democracy, then you also need to actually fight for these things, and be prepared to fight, should a disaster arise.

You see it all the time around the world, people unable to defend themselves and their property, being killed and worse. If only they could have stood up to the threat, when the problem first arose, many wars and bad people would never have happened.

[Friends name], yep, I know the conversion does have competitive drawbacks, but due to California law, there is no legal way for me to compete in California with international competition, but mainly as with all competition,track, wrestling, football, powerlifting, full contact competition fighting, or weapons, I only compete against myself. I have converted my gun, with the optics, and am mostly interested in competing with the optics, and I do find the challenge of meeting legal code, and competing worthy, despite my personal abhorance of my states arms bearing laws, right or wrong, it is still my country, my states and my neighborhoods, and meeting the laws of the worst, I feel most challenged, and there is a certain pleasure in over coming obstacle. Besides for self defense I like the optics, and if the laws do change, or I relocate, this wil get me closer to international competition standards. So like competing 3 gun with CA legal arms, this is also what my People have set for me, until, I or others can change it.

Personally I can say I do not feel protected in any ways shape of form by our country. Nor would I want it if it existed. Its the duty of all to stand up for freedom, and while I may not agree that freedom exists in our country, I certainly fight for it, in any defensive way possible, with responsiblity for myself and all around me, as much as humanly possible.

I have never had any protective help or aid from this countries government or law enforcement, And I have been to the local authorities, fedreal and secret service for help with criminal persecution, murderers and terrorists. How I become a taret so often for these actions, is a mystery, but they say that when you stand above others in performance of duty, you become a natural target.

For me and many I have seen, they fall short, but i do not blame them as a group, over stretched, and dealing with problems beyond most of their even most advanced capabilities and training. Chemical biological and psychological terrorism, The corruption of this country has even become rather public knowledge, CIA techniques and scripting being adopted so much by racketeers and the greedy and corrupt. So hideous can criminal deception become in the hands of educated and well financed American criminals and the corrupt who aid them, it is easy to see how authorities fear to openly respond or even publically admit that they can not deal with it. I have only seen the dark side and total failure or America's government. I have writen and I still see holocaust ongoing and hidden by Our Government, well hidden and ingrained in the corruption of Our Country and profit driven greed of financial factors. I think eventually this will change, as more and more public knowledge and support grow..


Despite what has sent many of my country men and friends fleeing the country disenchanted and bitter ex-patriots it is still My Country, My Flag and My Laws (even ones I do not agree with) and in the words of Stephen Decatur, "Our country, in dealing with other countries, may she always be right; but it is still our country, right or wrong."


WIth my degree and education in Government and Law, and my personal dedication with an adult lifetime of law abidence and patriotism. WHich I have often and repeated had to prove over and over that my actions and intentions are and always have been, even in the most difficult and unbelievable circumstances. I fight a personal war on terror, not out of fear, not for reward, but because it is the right thing to do, A personal war that few I have met or tryed to talk with face to face outside of extreme law enforcment and combat vets, can appreciate or even begin to understand the depth of corruption and fraud that prevails in the financial and political side of Our Country. Granted there is good and bad in all walks of life, but the bad is very bad.

I also fight everyday for courtesy, freedom and all the other good things my familly and every one I consider a friend has ever taught me and demonstrated. Not too forget my grandfather whom fough many tours of combat in WW2 including one of the most bloody battles of mankinds known history. I feel as his grandson, as well as my father extensive work with the Marines and others, that I have a inheritance of Freedom, that should be respected,whether I have worn a uniforn or not. I have long owned and weilded arms in self defense of myself and others, but always with a grasp and spirit of the laws and of my duty to others. Personally I wonder at why we even need so very much law enforcement or military as country, when we could do it as Men and People of Honor. I think if this nation was better taught and more people stood together to teach the children right from wrong, It could all be done with out having to pay people for it. So much other work that generates economy that exists, I have never felt a shortage of work needing to be done. I wonder at this countries first civil war, and how a country such as ours became so divided, but as Abraham Lincoln said " I know that the Lord is always on the side of the right.." Even as a Buddist, these words ring true. And my country right or wrong, the lord will always be on the side of the right. I just woner when this shall come to pass.

Anyways, sorry if I got too heavy, but your quotes in the email, seem to beg for a persoanl response,or challenge, as an ex-soldier to a civilian. I ofen wonder at Eisenhauers strength in winning WW2, and how it feels to be a soldier of a country that has not clearly won a conflict since? Though more and more the UN takes the legal sanction of conflict or deployment of global troops to conflict. How long untill Our Nation wins wars as well as more importantly converting combatants into Strong Allies. Why can we not secure North Korea, Irag, Iran and so many others to allie them selves with the will of God, as I have yet to really see in any major religion a will that goes against a comon notion of God as protector of people, and nurturer or truth...But as Buddist, the Buddist view has always been that it is the True stand up for all man, not as a soldier, not as means of profit or gain,but as duty and out of free will against all enemies of mankind, and not at the expense of the innocent, because it is the right thing to always do, even against certain death.

But luckilly, things are peaceful, even in an absence of justice, so I can only hope this gets better, but I still feel if you want peace, then always prepare for war. Not to mention security, in cases of emergencies, since as strong as mankind is, Acts of God are still substancially stronger then anything we have created yet, even then the bomb. We may have created total destruction, but we have yet to create total repair of mankinds damage or human short comings.

So yes, CA legal open class=wimpy and lots of extra work, but This is My Nation and My State and respect to both is my nature.

Always a pleasure, Tim



"A thousand shall fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; but it shall not come near you.."-psalm 91:7

so in my latest un-released ad campaign for obama, he is sitting bored whacking off in the oval office, as MO dont give none, and he thinks, hmm, lets go haeve a parade! so he gets on the Horn to the generals and assembles a lot of troops to the white house lawn, for a rare press interview and photo shoot (no, not a shoot of at risk countries taking shoe throws at him in a dunking booth)
so anyways, he is out leading the parade hisself, left, right, left right, up down up dow, and all of a sudden he shouts "Moonwalk!" all the troops stop, bump into each other and look at each other then a smile breaks out on all, and they start moonwalking. and man can those troops moon walk! and Obie is moon walkin, and the marching band strikes up "Thriller!" and then the camera zooms into bammy, and he has fangs on and cat eye contacts and he growls at the camera and makes a scarey hands gesture, like Don at work did for S & G....

I am taking donations for my Political Ad agencies on my info page here if anyone wants to fund my work...
http://dreamsailboat.livejournal.com/

I got a million other ones, but lack funding or motivation to really follow my dreams. please please please help!


anyone remeber my campaign ad for mr. chickeeboo, i mean mister lipshitstopressthebigonebuttonletsdisarmournukes. personally i think we could be nuked out by china at any second, becos everyone knows hes too much a pussy to retaliate nuclearly... why the usa hires someone incapable and unwilling to do the job is beyond me. at least Eisenhauer knew how to win a war... possibly the last war the usa won if these wimps have their way... i would say civil war and declare martial law, till the economy picks up, all the institutional goons could go get real jobs, instead of being a burden on society. blar blar blar yadda yadda yadda yah teh hey!

"In a Newsweek interview, Eisenhower again recalled the meeting with Stimson:
"...the Japanese were ready to surrender and it wasn't necessary to hit them with that awful thing."
- Ike on Ike, Newsweek, 11/11/63 "

if anybody wants to be my facebook friend let me know. i seem to be wasting more time there then here at the moment. blah.

though i keep imagining I post really good stuff here, but never get to it...

uhm, fcebook is taking over my blogging lately, and I miss long meaniful venting and pithy rants...
(you see, even this post is twitter sizable!)

almost crashed my car at a stop light last night, when one of my stomach muscles cramped up violently, causing my arms and legs to spasm uncontrolably from pain. Luckilly I very quickly regained control before hitting anything aand was able to drive, albeit, shouting in pain and trying violently to massage my muscle, to drive till I could soonest park and get out of the car to stretch more. Though after many minutes of stretching, I was not able to uncramp the muscle, I did then drive home with the cramp and a lot of pain, being slightly distracted and annoyed by a police cruiser following me. Though I had been being followed by SFPD cruisers most of the day. Though this is not unusual, mostly they seem to want to speed after me and inspect me and then ignore me, I feel marked ;)

This reminds me of driving my motorcycle to Santa Cruz for some strange reason. Man do I ever miss riding...definitly need another big bike and safety gear, when I can budget it.

you are prohibited from casting aspersions on the motivations of your colleagues

half a pound over weight today. over my so called perfect weight for my body and all. still think I should be lighter though. anyways doing good with that. went sailboat racing last sunday and two boats collided and tore each otheres masts down. its a a very competitive league, and half the racing is stuffing and cutting off and blocking out each other. well actually half of all sailboat racing is this.
erm, some girl was screaming my name out in front of my place the other night about 8:30 but i was pretty sleepy and mostly asleep so missed her, who ever she was. sounded like my ex, but cant be sure, though I called her, but she didnt say anything back wich makes me wonder if it was her and she is jut mad or if it was someother girl, but who that could be would baffle me. what i really need is a new gf or two! need to get more social. the weather has been very very lovely adn warm and sy=nny acually ht last few days. raher light winds but that can change and i am here in the slot, so always some wind.
hmm. ran ten miles today and then washed the car and ran errands. bluh bluh bluh

I got a $250 clock and barometer today for $10 Funny thing it is inscribed to other people! :DDD ~perks of working!
also got a new tripod in the mail, and am tring to take more photos... 365!
erm, that is all!

paint stripped the sink today, found some paint stripping stuff, and figured to try. took a while and was very toxic, but took most of the paint off. gel coated it. the interesting thing was the gel coat cures in about 10-15 minutes and is hard and smooth like glass in about an hour or less, but as it is drying it it bubles and opens up, but later it all smoothes out, after it is seemingly hard, it is still hard/liquid and seals up. came out very nicely, well at lest much better then before.
I think I have a head ache.

AHA! working on the baot is finallypaying off, gettingthings ship shape! ready to sail sail sail! also feeling good about it!
as always ;) also hmm, not enough hours in the day. still wishing for privacy and not being harrassed constantly by stalkers. seriously who do these stalkers think they are? wtf.

even with a flat tragectory, the sight is angled, and adjusts with your imagination for range/distance.

finally some progress, changed sprocket and cog on the bike project and got a new chain! back on the road! also changed from single stack division to open class division in my sportsmanship, finally getting the grips changed and beaver tail and c-more put on. rah rah rah. tho missed yoga class and did not exercise at all, but got some major chores done, that have been waiting around too long to get done. back to job hunting tomorrow and working on the varnish and cleaning... I hope i can finally run out of projects soon and get back to just working or at leat looking for work and not juggling a million things at once and being holed up sick or injured...
:D pictures to follow!!! for real.
ame back and bbq!d seaks and wine, lovely warm evening!

its not just how paintings look, but how the painter thinks about painting

sooo, took my freestyle bike out for a test ride today. needless to say no fantastic tricks were done, but I did have fun, and its a huge work out, even more then spinning. i am not even going to say what totally lame tricks I mastered, but i am a little better then yesterday at freestyling --hahaha!