People in an elevator.

vlog update yesterday.

was okay xmas. went to the nutcracker xmas eve alone, again, and next day went to an early showing of Chipmunks Squeakwell at the movie theaters. coffee and cookie with me. then ate a lot and have been pretty lazy since. went to the gym this morning and also started food bloging/calory counting again, but am pretty good on that count, but just want to fine tune my diet a bit more. otherwise, super lazy and just organing a super big to do list, written this morning on a cover of the sf weekly zine. oh yeah, and an old old old high school friend, sent me a gorgeous photo/nudes book, very classy porn! for xmas, she is trying to seduce me from afar. Did have a very lovely phone talk with my grandmother, talking about all the wild animals we see around, she says there are chipmunks there and coyotes and other stuff, oh a bobcat. And me talking about giant pelicans, and huge elephant seals and skunks...

I have been trying to keep a calender and get more organized
i typed in everything for two weeks, every single 30 minutes of time, planned...
and it took me two days to finish the first 30 minutes, and then I accidentally deleted the calender
so i have to do it over...
HAHAHAHHA
really...
see how organized I am...

9:19pm
Audrey
uehahahahahahhaa
bravo!!!


9:19pm
Tim
so much for planning
i am going to keep at it though
I can only get better

have been posting very little, but started a vblog, and been trying to post everyday. very tough to get time, as I usually get time only at wee hours, and during bad lighting for posting. Also too harried to post very well.

Been super busy trying to work on the boat, doing a big project, and again having a hard time planning managing time for it, considering the set up and take down time while working. kind of reminds me of a big painting project. Want to be painting and writing more, but again, time and space availability.

Started using a day planner calender on my computer, and scheduled every minute of my time for the next 2 weeks, only to find, that its takes me 2 days for finish the first 30 minutes of my planning.
Serious planning re-planing of time management needed. Am thinking of just keeping a time usage calender so I can actually see where my time is going, and then try to plan it. also thinking of using it as a daily reminder and monthly planner of tasks that must be completed. Rather turning into a big project in itself just to plan time usage. but if I am to get everything done, will have to be done. one way or the other.

Been flirting with lots of girls and am never at a lack of non-surprise to see how selfish and petty people are towards others, for any reason. Just like in the work place or about anywhere, especially the more people think you appreciate them, or like them, the less respect and civility they tend to demonstrate. I wonder who is teaching such un-civil, selfish and cowardly behavior in this world? Certainly it starts in the home, and spreads out through social networks?

SO many people seem blind to their own actions towards others, or perhaps are overly, I am not sure what the word is, perhaps weakness of character, or self importance, that guides so much negligent behavior of others...

blah blah bar dee blah.

Oh and it seems xmas carols never go out of style or favor. I could sing them all day and night!!!!

Looking at that traveling water filter company you pointed out, and the ministry of water purification, and as much as I am sure they come across as great people out to save the world, it is also very much looking like snake oil sales men to me. They seem geared to profit off of disaster relief at the expense of third world countries, in a non-sustainable way.

I am all for water collection, and think that they are using a hot and vital problem, but not very convinced about their intentions other then that they are geared to make money, and not pay taxes. Sounds more like a green washed scheme to me. You have to remember, and I imagine you probably know this already, but non-profits can actually pay very high salaries, and expenses to their employees. Combine that with a Ministry also another tax dodger, and look at their products. Sure $20 sounds cheap to American standards, but if their product is costing them $3 and they are marking it up that much... also selling plastic buckets for another 20 bucks and plastic spigots... sounds more like gold diggers, as young and hip and smooth as they may be, and dewey eyed when it comes to gosh darn it getting water to those poor dying people, they are also hitting up the disaster relief funders, the emergency stricken governments for their high mark up products, and avoiding taxes and paying themselves very well...

its easy to justify that they deserve the money and expenses, traveling around pedaling their snake oil, seeing the world on an expense account and fat profits...but really what are they doing...

Here's a org I like that is working on the water problem. As from what I understand about healthy wter, its not just about filtering or killing bacteria, and removing man made pollution or natural pollution, but about where the water comes from that makes it safe to drink.


http://www.hipporoller.org/
The Hippo Roller

spoiler: pointless vlog daily entry =P



daily vblog, notice here, that not much very interesting to say, but I guess thats a vlog, not always super interesting or funny stuff, or what ever. erm, i think I will try and maybe plan what I will say in a vlog more, but going to try and keep at it.

new video blog post:



otherwise, did a lot of work today, busy on the boat. a lot of hurry up and wait, trying to minimize surging and time being on the mast with calm spots, also a lot of time spent thinking of how to rig things up, including tmeporary spreaders between halyards to help stabilize the mast while working on it, and was in a new harness today, I had got it a couple years ago, in australia, but have not wanted to really switch over, as my old petzal is/was so much more comfortable, but decided for safety that it was really too worn and time to permanantly retire it, so yeah, safety first...

i started a v-blog. erm,new computer with a built in cam, so about time, i get a little more in your face. well, itws painful, but enjoy! hahaha it took me actually an hour and deleted this a bout 50 times, which probably shouldnt have, but wtf, its just fun. yeah.

more and more seem to spend more time, posting ojn face book, and keep thinking and trying to start, project and subject specific journals, though none have really started yet, but soon. keep trying to come back here and write a real update. requardless of new blogs, and social journaly things, there is still something about being here 10 years, that makes me stay loyal. small and strange, it is still a quiet nice place to write.

in other news, nothing at all exciting, new or interesting going on with me. am working onthe sailboat, that is exciting, and a big project, also working on fixing computers, a big difference when the crazey little things work. i forgot how nice it is when things actually work right, instead of constant uniterrupted breaking and constant knee jerk interruptions.... :) not that that isnt still going on. but anyways...

was working on the boat today, but got rained out, and came inside for a nap and then working on computers all day and still at it...

happy buy nothing day! :)

Are you celebrating T-Day? I personally find it super hypocritical, to celebrate 'the day the pilgrims sat down to feast with the indians" considering the pilgrims and company, basically genocided them all, or the majority and stole all their land...and forced the survivors onto 'reservations'... THe saddest part, is that the indians seemed more 'advanced' and more 'civilized' in most ways then the people who drove them out, albeit, less well technologically armed, and less well 'evolved' to deal with sickness and alcohol...

But, none the less, I will still eat some turkey, pumpkin pie and feel the 'warmth' and 'good cheer' of the holidays. And of course, remeber what I have to non-hypocritcally be thankful for. (And feel a little bit sad for the native north americans.)

Not the sharpest crayon in the box

running across more old friends from growing up, one girl asked me today if I was in the cia! hahahaha! how funny is that. =P
in other news this country is too corrupt to hire honest people...
like Katrina showed, everything becomes an opportunity for gov't to juggle power and finances...

oh about the same as you I suppose. I can relate to the lack of team work, at my part time job at the boat store, the 'crew' leave much to be desired in the line of team work. seems like back stabbing and ego tripps dominate that bunch, but luckilly I really have little to do with them, and am only there one day a week.

Personally, I try not to get involved in the juvenile hustling for pecking order in groups of low esteem... I think the people there suffer from personal problems and lack of self confidence as well as who knows what sort of mental problems :P SoooOoo, I just try and be a better person, ignore their petty failures in life, and just do my work and get on with other things. Its unfortunate when people can not appreciate the oppertunities to learn from others and truely develop a real sense of team work and grow and work with each other. But even worse is lowering your standards to that of people who do not really understand what team work really is about...

But thats life, especially these days, so much petty backstabig as people stramble for anything in the way of work or school. I rember the same in art school, where many immature people really can make things a pain. Har d as it might seem, best to stay out of their low tactics and just try and do your own thing. You should also go to your advisors at school and voice your disapointments with the situation. granted its unlikely they can really do anything to improve it, as your choices are usually either toughen up and grow some thicker skin, or do what you can to not get involved with them as much as possible.

Sad as it may seem, finding a 'good' situation of working with serious like minded professionals, is rare these days, and you do have to put up with untold amounts of childish behavior and ego trips...

That is one of the hard things going from the professional world or working to back to school,.. :/

Sorry to hear you are struggling, I am pulling for you and hope things improve. As for myself, I am just looking for a better job and trying to have as little to do with the people at the boat store as possible, as letting people drag you down, is not my style ;) On ward and Upward! :D

Hahaha, I don't know about me being any good at it, but I am safe! I think safety first and I will improve with practice, like anything else. I have been shooting for a very long time, but this sport is new to mee too, only been at it a little while, but I do enjoy it. Though its msostly sitting around waiting to shoot, and then it is very complicated and takes some thinking to get it right.

Best defense for your self and stress, is not to get it! Avoid dangerous situations and people and avoid things that stress you out! Guns are a defense of last resort, for life and death, when there is no escape or other way to be safe.

I think though, if you say you support world peace and fighting for democracy, then you also need to actually fight for these things, and be prepared to fight, should a disaster arise.

You see it all the time around the world, people unable to defend themselves and their property, being killed and worse. If only they could have stood up to the threat, when the problem first arose, many wars and bad people would never have happened.

[Friends name], yep, I know the conversion does have competitive drawbacks, but due to California law, there is no legal way for me to compete in California with international competition, but mainly as with all competition,track, wrestling, football, powerlifting, full contact competition fighting, or weapons, I only compete against myself. I have converted my gun, with the optics, and am mostly interested in competing with the optics, and I do find the challenge of meeting legal code, and competing worthy, despite my personal abhorance of my states arms bearing laws, right or wrong, it is still my country, my states and my neighborhoods, and meeting the laws of the worst, I feel most challenged, and there is a certain pleasure in over coming obstacle. Besides for self defense I like the optics, and if the laws do change, or I relocate, this wil get me closer to international competition standards. So like competing 3 gun with CA legal arms, this is also what my People have set for me, until, I or others can change it.

Personally I can say I do not feel protected in any ways shape of form by our country. Nor would I want it if it existed. Its the duty of all to stand up for freedom, and while I may not agree that freedom exists in our country, I certainly fight for it, in any defensive way possible, with responsiblity for myself and all around me, as much as humanly possible.

I have never had any protective help or aid from this countries government or law enforcement, And I have been to the local authorities, fedreal and secret service for help with criminal persecution, murderers and terrorists. How I become a taret so often for these actions, is a mystery, but they say that when you stand above others in performance of duty, you become a natural target.

For me and many I have seen, they fall short, but i do not blame them as a group, over stretched, and dealing with problems beyond most of their even most advanced capabilities and training. Chemical biological and psychological terrorism, The corruption of this country has even become rather public knowledge, CIA techniques and scripting being adopted so much by racketeers and the greedy and corrupt. So hideous can criminal deception become in the hands of educated and well financed American criminals and the corrupt who aid them, it is easy to see how authorities fear to openly respond or even publically admit that they can not deal with it. I have only seen the dark side and total failure or America's government. I have writen and I still see holocaust ongoing and hidden by Our Government, well hidden and ingrained in the corruption of Our Country and profit driven greed of financial factors. I think eventually this will change, as more and more public knowledge and support grow..


Despite what has sent many of my country men and friends fleeing the country disenchanted and bitter ex-patriots it is still My Country, My Flag and My Laws (even ones I do not agree with) and in the words of Stephen Decatur, "Our country, in dealing with other countries, may she always be right; but it is still our country, right or wrong."


WIth my degree and education in Government and Law, and my personal dedication with an adult lifetime of law abidence and patriotism. WHich I have often and repeated had to prove over and over that my actions and intentions are and always have been, even in the most difficult and unbelievable circumstances. I fight a personal war on terror, not out of fear, not for reward, but because it is the right thing to do, A personal war that few I have met or tryed to talk with face to face outside of extreme law enforcment and combat vets, can appreciate or even begin to understand the depth of corruption and fraud that prevails in the financial and political side of Our Country. Granted there is good and bad in all walks of life, but the bad is very bad.

I also fight everyday for courtesy, freedom and all the other good things my familly and every one I consider a friend has ever taught me and demonstrated. Not too forget my grandfather whom fough many tours of combat in WW2 including one of the most bloody battles of mankinds known history. I feel as his grandson, as well as my father extensive work with the Marines and others, that I have a inheritance of Freedom, that should be respected,whether I have worn a uniforn or not. I have long owned and weilded arms in self defense of myself and others, but always with a grasp and spirit of the laws and of my duty to others. Personally I wonder at why we even need so very much law enforcement or military as country, when we could do it as Men and People of Honor. I think if this nation was better taught and more people stood together to teach the children right from wrong, It could all be done with out having to pay people for it. So much other work that generates economy that exists, I have never felt a shortage of work needing to be done. I wonder at this countries first civil war, and how a country such as ours became so divided, but as Abraham Lincoln said " I know that the Lord is always on the side of the right.." Even as a Buddist, these words ring true. And my country right or wrong, the lord will always be on the side of the right. I just woner when this shall come to pass.

Anyways, sorry if I got too heavy, but your quotes in the email, seem to beg for a persoanl response,or challenge, as an ex-soldier to a civilian. I ofen wonder at Eisenhauers strength in winning WW2, and how it feels to be a soldier of a country that has not clearly won a conflict since? Though more and more the UN takes the legal sanction of conflict or deployment of global troops to conflict. How long untill Our Nation wins wars as well as more importantly converting combatants into Strong Allies. Why can we not secure North Korea, Irag, Iran and so many others to allie them selves with the will of God, as I have yet to really see in any major religion a will that goes against a comon notion of God as protector of people, and nurturer or truth...But as Buddist, the Buddist view has always been that it is the True stand up for all man, not as a soldier, not as means of profit or gain,but as duty and out of free will against all enemies of mankind, and not at the expense of the innocent, because it is the right thing to always do, even against certain death.

But luckilly, things are peaceful, even in an absence of justice, so I can only hope this gets better, but I still feel if you want peace, then always prepare for war. Not to mention security, in cases of emergencies, since as strong as mankind is, Acts of God are still substancially stronger then anything we have created yet, even then the bomb. We may have created total destruction, but we have yet to create total repair of mankinds damage or human short comings.

So yes, CA legal open class=wimpy and lots of extra work, but This is My Nation and My State and respect to both is my nature.

Always a pleasure, Tim



"A thousand shall fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand; but it shall not come near you.."-psalm 91:7

so in my latest un-released ad campaign for obama, he is sitting bored whacking off in the oval office, as MO dont give none, and he thinks, hmm, lets go haeve a parade! so he gets on the Horn to the generals and assembles a lot of troops to the white house lawn, for a rare press interview and photo shoot (no, not a shoot of at risk countries taking shoe throws at him in a dunking booth)
so anyways, he is out leading the parade hisself, left, right, left right, up down up dow, and all of a sudden he shouts "Moonwalk!" all the troops stop, bump into each other and look at each other then a smile breaks out on all, and they start moonwalking. and man can those troops moon walk! and Obie is moon walkin, and the marching band strikes up "Thriller!" and then the camera zooms into bammy, and he has fangs on and cat eye contacts and he growls at the camera and makes a scarey hands gesture, like Don at work did for S & G....

I am taking donations for my Political Ad agencies on my info page here if anyone wants to fund my work...
http://dreamsailboat.livejournal.com/

I got a million other ones, but lack funding or motivation to really follow my dreams. please please please help!


anyone remeber my campaign ad for mr. chickeeboo, i mean mister lipshitstopressthebigonebuttonletsdisarmournukes. personally i think we could be nuked out by china at any second, becos everyone knows hes too much a pussy to retaliate nuclearly... why the usa hires someone incapable and unwilling to do the job is beyond me. at least Eisenhauer knew how to win a war... possibly the last war the usa won if these wimps have their way... i would say civil war and declare martial law, till the economy picks up, all the institutional goons could go get real jobs, instead of being a burden on society. blar blar blar yadda yadda yadda yah teh hey!

"In a Newsweek interview, Eisenhower again recalled the meeting with Stimson:
"...the Japanese were ready to surrender and it wasn't necessary to hit them with that awful thing."
- Ike on Ike, Newsweek, 11/11/63 "

if anybody wants to be my facebook friend let me know. i seem to be wasting more time there then here at the moment. blah.

though i keep imagining I post really good stuff here, but never get to it...

uhm, fcebook is taking over my blogging lately, and I miss long meaniful venting and pithy rants...
(you see, even this post is twitter sizable!)

almost crashed my car at a stop light last night, when one of my stomach muscles cramped up violently, causing my arms and legs to spasm uncontrolably from pain. Luckilly I very quickly regained control before hitting anything aand was able to drive, albeit, shouting in pain and trying violently to massage my muscle, to drive till I could soonest park and get out of the car to stretch more. Though after many minutes of stretching, I was not able to uncramp the muscle, I did then drive home with the cramp and a lot of pain, being slightly distracted and annoyed by a police cruiser following me. Though I had been being followed by SFPD cruisers most of the day. Though this is not unusual, mostly they seem to want to speed after me and inspect me and then ignore me, I feel marked ;)

This reminds me of driving my motorcycle to Santa Cruz for some strange reason. Man do I ever miss riding...definitly need another big bike and safety gear, when I can budget it.

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